Movies watched in 2020

1- Notting Hill
2- Marie Antoinette (2006)
3- The Holiday
4- Downton Abbey
5- Last Christmas
6- Ready or not
7- Eli
8- Aladdin (2019)
9- Annabelle comes home (rewatch)
10- Your Name
11- Remember Me
12- Parasite
13- Midsommar
14- Booksmart
15- Mamma Mia! Here We Go Again (rewatch)
16- To All The Boys: P.S. I Still Love You
17- A Cure for Wellness
18- Frozen II
19- Dumplin' (rewatch)
20- A Silent Voice
21- My Neighbor Totoro
22- All the bright places
23- Madame Marguerite (rewatch)
24- Scary stories to tell in the dark
25- El Hoyo
26- Call me by your name (rewatch)
27- One of us
28- Love. Wedding. Repeat
29- Ingrid Goes West
30- Little Women
31- Bikram: Yogi, Guru, Predator
32- The Half Of It
33- XX
34- Malasaña 32
35- Bombshell
36- Hairspray (rewatch)
37- Haunt
38- Polaroid
39- Twilight (rewatch)
40- New Moon (rewatch)
41- El ataúd de cristal
42- Eclipse (rewatch)
43- A Secret Love
44- The Texas Chain Saw Massacre (1974)
45- Breaking Dawn pt.1 (rewatch)
46- Breaking Dawn pt.2 (rewatch)
47- Eurovision Song Contest: The Story of Fire Saga
48- Emma (2020)
49- La enviada del mal

50- Disclosure: Trans Lives on Screen
51- Slender Man
52- Yes, God, Yes
53- The Hunt
54- Frágiles
55- Dawn of the Dead
56- Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt
57- You Should Have Left
58- Audrie & Daisy
59- Host
60- Cosmopolis
61- Tenet

62- Enola Holmes

63- The Devil All The Time

64- The Broken Hearts Gallery

65- Cyborg 2

66- Deadly Eyes

67- Mrs. Doubtfire (rewatch)

68- Los ojos de Julia (rewatch)

69- Mean Girls (rewatch)

70- Shutter

71- The Nightmare Before Christmas (rewatch)

72- Dr Seuss' The Cat in the Hat

73- Saint Maud

74- Pitch Perfect (rewatch)

Books of 2020

1- The Hidden Life of Trees: What They Feel, How They Communicate - Peter Wohlleben 4/5
2- Le ceneri di Gramsci - Pier Paolo Passolini 3/5
3- iZombie, Vol. 1: Dead to the World - Chris Roberson 4/5
4- The Guest Cat - Takashi Hiraide 4,2/5
5- Puddin' - Julie Murphy 4/5
6- Dumplin' - Julie Muprhy 4/5
7- Call me by your name - André Aciman 4/5
8- The true story of a not so crazy cat lady - Catherine Walker 4/5
9- The river of no return - Bee Ridgway 3/5

10- Triunfos - Francesco Petrarca 3/5 

11- A field guide to getting lost - Rebecca Solnit 1/5

12- The Rosie Effect - Graeme Simsion 4/5

13- The Travelling Cat Chronicles - Hiro Arikawa 5/5

14- Fleabag, the scriptures - Phoebe Waller-Bridge 5/5

15- From here to eternity - Caitlyn Doughty 5/5

16- Attachements - Rainbow Rowell 4/5 

17- Twilight - Stephenie Meyer 4/5

18- Matilda - Roald Dahl 4/5

19- Long way down - Jason Reynolds, Chris Priestley 5/5

20- Estimada Marta - Miquel Martí i Pol 4/5

21- An author's Odyssey - Chris Colfer 4/5

22- Get a life, Chloe Brown - Talia Hibbert 5/5

23- The Silent Companions - Laura Purcell 5/5

24- Take a Hint, Dani Brown - Talia Hibbert 4/5

25- Midnight Sun - Stephenie Meyer 4/5

26- The Silence Of Bones - June Hur 4/5

27- The Changeling - Victor Lavalle 4/5

28- Dracula - Bram Stoker 

29- To Be Honest - Maggie Ann Martin 4/5

30- The Duff - Kody Keplinger 4/5

31- Transit - Anna Seghers (German ver.)

32- Transit - Anna Seghers (English ver.)

33- The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue - V.E. Schwab 5/5

Movies watched in 2019

1- The First Purge
2- Ocho apellidos vascos
3- Ocho apellidos catalanes
4- Soltera codiciada
5- Boy erased
6- The Nutcracker and the Four Realms
7- The Favourite
8- Dumplin'
9- Catwalk: Tales from the Cat Show Circuit
10- The Breaker Uppers
11- Dear Ex
12- Isn't It Romantic
13- The Seagull
14- Escape Room
15- Life Itself
16- He's Out There
17- The Perfect Date
18- The Princess Bride
19- Unicorn Store
20- Dumbo (2019)
21- Tu Hijo
22- Berlin Syndrome
23- El Hijo
24- Paranormal Activity 2 (rewatch)
25- Yesterday
26- Annabelle Comes Home
27- Jawbreaker
28- The Cube
29- The Virgin Suicides
30- Once upon a time... in Hollywood
31- Kill Bill: Volume 1
32- Kill Bill: Volume 2
33- Professor Marston and the Wonder Women
34- Tall Girl
35- Victoria and Abdul
36- Cloverfield
37- Joker
38- Zombieland
39- In The Tall Grass
40- Between Two Ferns: The Movie
41- A Cinderella Story
42- Bram Stoker's Dracula (rewatch)
43- Let it snow
44- Verónica (rewatch)
45- Happy Death Day 2U
46- Train to Busan
47- Knives Out
48- Enganchados a la muerte
49- Twilight (rewatch)
50- New Moon (rewatch)
51- Eclipse (rewatch)
52- Breaking Dawn Part 1 (rewatch)
53- Breaking Dawn Part 2 (rewatch)
54- Angus, thongs and perfect snogging (rewatch)

Books of 2019

1- Canne al vento - Grazia Deledda 3/5
2- The becoming of Noah Shaw - Michelle Hodkin 2/5
3- If cats disappeared from the world - Genki Kawamura 5/5
4- Envelope Poems - Emily Dickinson 4/5
5- Dumplin' - Julie Murphy 4.5/5
6- Demian - Hermann Hesse  4/5
7- Angel Caging - Martin Reed 4/5
8- Speak of me as I am - Sonia Belasco 4/5
9- Phantom Limbs - Paula Garner 3/5
10- Smoke gets in your eyes: And other lessons from the crematory - Caitlin Doughty 5/5
11- Frankenstein - Mary Shelley 2/5
12- Let it snow - John Green, Maureen Johnson, Lauren Myracle 4/5

Movies watched in 2018

1- Stigmata
2- Krampus (re-watch)
3- The Mask (re-watch)
4- Coco
5- Jigsaw
6- Happy death day
7- Extremis
8- Paranormal Activity 3
9- Paranormal Activity 2
10- París, París
11- Wonder
12- La Llamada
13- Paranormal Activity
14- Paranormal Activity 4
15- Into the woods (re-watch)
16- Inception (re-watch)
17- Pitch Perfect 3
18- Call me by your name
19- Method
20- Joy
21- The Lady in the Van
22- Bridget Jones' Baby (re-watch)
23- Shakespeare in love
24- The Good Dinosaur (re-watch)
25- El Bar
26- Happy Anniversary
27- La mala educación
28- The greatest showman
29- The Ritual
30- Tangled (re-watch)
31- Fright Night
32- The Orphan
33- Every Day
34- A Quiet Place
35- 10x10
36- Incident in a Ghost Land
37- Final Destination
38- A Wrinkle in Time
39- Paranormal Activity 5
40- Gonjiam: Haunted Asylum
41- The Feels
42- The Number 23
43- The Domestics
44- Lady Bird
45- Insidious
46- La Purga 2 (re-watch)
47- The Secret Diaries of Miss Anne Lister
48- Mamma Mia! Here We Go Again
49- Gnomeo & Julieta (re-watch)
50- Mamma Mia! (re-watch)
51- Mean Girls (re-watch)
52- Cinderella (re-watch)
53- Hot Fuzz
54- The Visit (re-watch)
55- Julie & Julia
56- Today's Special
57- The Big Sick
58- Love, Simon
59- On Chesil Beach
60- Loving Vincent
61- Letters to Juliet
62- Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2
63- The Meg
64- Lovesong
65- To all the boys I've loved before
66- To all the boys I've loved before (re-watch)
67- The Blair Witch Project
68- Hereditary
69- Bridget Jones' Diary (re-watch)
70- Hurricane Bianca: From Russia With Hate
71- Sierra Burgess is a Loser
72- The Nun
73- La mujer más asesinada del mundo
74- SPF-18 (why did I watch this)
75- Hotel Transylvania 3
76- Deadpool 2
77- Unfriended: Dark Web
78- Source Code
79- Hush
80- Bohemian Rhapsody
81- Burn The Stage: The Movie
82- The Incredibles 2
83- Crazy Rich Asians
84- Bridesmaids
85- The Little Mermaid (2018)
86- Nanny McPhee and the Big Bang
87- Roma
88- Moana (re-watch)
89- Matilda (re-watch)
90- A Simple Favor
91- Christopher Robin
92- Everything, Everything
93- Mary Poppins Returns
94- Malevolent
95- The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
96- Sing! (re-watch)
97- The road to El Dorado
98- Black Mirror: Bandersnatch
99- The Outsiders
100- Les goûts et couleurs

Books of 2018

1- La Veneciana - Anonimo veneto del XVI secolo, Ludovico Zorzi 2/5
2- La piel del zorro - Herta Müller 3/5
3- La excursión de las muchachas muertas - Anna Seghers 3/5
4- Si esto es un hombre - Primo Levi 5/5
5- Sin destino - Imre Kertész 4/5
6- La escritura o la vida - Jorge Semprún 4/5
7- Teresada. Inspirado en la vida y la obra de Teresa de Jesús - Louise Doutreligne 2/5
8- En el lago - Javier Martos, Jesús Gordillo 3/5
9- The girl who came back to life - Craig Staufenberg 5/5
10- Desire - Haruki Murakami 3/5
11- Antología poética - Federico García Lorca 4/5

He somiat amb tu.

No és la primera volta que somie amb tu, des de que ens vam conèixer i des d'este estiu especialment. Però esta nit, per algun motiu que encara no comprenc ha sigut diferent a la resta, ha sigut més intens.
He tornat a somiar amb tu i m'he adonat més que mai de la forta presència de la porta que has obert durant este estiu. Eixa porta que al principi no sabia ni que existia i que durant agost has obert els meus ulls i me l'has mostrat amb tota claredat, oberta de bat a bat i m'has confós com feia molt de temps que ningú ho aconseguia.
Però tinc dubtes. Tinc dubtes de que eixa porta estiga oberta pels dos costats, tinc dubtes de si hauríem de creuar el llindar i veure què passa, o si ens hauríem de quedar separats, cadascú al seu costat de la porta, fent com si no existira, com si no ens adonarem de la seua presència.
I amb dubtes em quedaré, per por a que estiguera jo imaginant-me eixa porta, per por a que me la tanques en els nassos, per por a que no pugam creuar-la i que siga massa tard per a tornar enrere.
Per por a perdre't.

III. Gacela del amor desesperado

III

Gacela del amor desesperado

La noche no quiere venir

para que tú no vengas,

ni yo pueda ir.

Pero yo iré,

aunque un sol de alacranes me coma la sien.

Pero tú vendrás

con la lengua quemada por la lluvia de sal.

El día no quiere venir

para que tú no vengas,

ni yo pueda ir.

Pero yo iré

entregando a los sapos mi mordido clavel.

Pero tú vendrás

por las turbias cloacas de la oscuridad.

Ni la noche ni el día quieren venir

para que por ti muera

y tú mueras por mí.

-Federico García Lorca

I'll pretend

I'm scared of pain, that's why I'll pretend not to notice the way you've been looking at me all night. I'll pretend that you're flirting with me in the same friendly way you used to do in high school. I'll pretend not to understand the real question behind your "is there something you need that I could do for you?" I'll pretend not to be nervous and act playful when you take a few steps towards me when we're talking outside my house. I'll pretend to be laughing "just because" and not because you're making my heart flutter and my pulse rise. I'll take a few steps back "because it's getting late and we should both go to bed" and not because I want to take them forward and kiss you. I'll pretend not to wish that hug you gave me would have lasted longer. I'll pretend to have forgotten and not ask you to send me those poems you've written because I'm afraid they might have a hidden message for me. Even if I so badly want to do so. I'll pretend and act like I'm not noticing your gestures, your comments. I'll pretend I haven't had to stop for a second to get myself together before opening the door because I couldn't stop smiling all the way down the stairs. I'll pretend not to notice your eyes on me while you're "taking a break" when we're having dinner. I'll pretend and put my hands around your neck and inside the sleeves of your  T-shirt "just so you can feel how cold my hands are", and not because I just want to and maybe because I'm trying to flirt with you. I'll pretend to be distracted and not properly say hello or goodbye to you because I really want to hug you and I'm afraid of you noticing how fast my heart is beating. I'll pretend not to be disappointed that we didn't say goodbye properly the last time we saw each other. I'll pretend because I can't believe you're making me feel all of this. I'll pretend because we both know we want different things for our future.

I'll pretend because there's a chance I might be imagining it all.

I'll pretend because I don't want to hurt you. I'll pretend because I don't want you to hurt me. I'll pretend because I don't want to lose you, even if that means keeping you at a distance.

Ziehende Landschaft

Mann muss weggehen können
und doch sein wie ein Baum:
als bliebe die Wurzel im Boden,
als zöge die Landschaft und wir ständen fest.
Man muss den Atem anhalten,
bis der Wind nachlässt
und die fremde Luft um uns zu kreisen beginnt,
bis das Spiel von Licht und Schatten,
von Grün und Blau,
die alten Muster zeigt
und wir zuhause sind,
wo es auch sei,
und niedersitzen können und uns anlehnen,
als sei es and das Grab
unserer Mutter.

-Hilde Domin